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COMMIT

com·mit
/kəˈmit/Submit
verb
1.
carry out or perpetrate (a mistake, crime, or immoral act).
“he committed an uncharacteristic error”
synonyms: carry out, do, perpetrate, engage in, enact, execute, effect, accomplish; More
2.
pledge or bind (a person or an organization) to a certain course or policy.
“they were reluctant to commit themselves to an opinion”
synonyms: pledge, devote, apply, give, dedicate
“they committed themselves to the project”
*from the Dictionary search on Google*

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Commit is the word that stuck out to me right away when I started to think about my 2019 Word of the Year. In much of my life, I have lacked a sense of commitment and sticking through the tough times. Not so much in a sense of personal commitment but in pretty much every other way. I tend to bail out on things when it gets hard or when my anxiety comes into play. So being consistent and committing to each and every adventure and new thing I take on is important to me this year. I can at least try and follow through on those things. The goal is to apply this to my personal life in learning to drive (permit), my new PT job, and my relationship. It will also help me be consistent and committed here in this space, and also help me to batch write and plan ahead more.

Last year my word was “Renew” I think I did well and applied this word in many places. I started this new blog. Maybe I didn’t make as much progress last year as I wanted to, but that’s okay. I started out feeling as fresh and new as I do now. We had obstacles that we balanced and problem-solved better than before. I wasn’t as anxious this year as I was the year prior. I have found ways and techniques to cope from day to day and change my reality in a better way. Now I’m committing to the process, and the journey will be a whole new place I haven’t been in before.

I want to recap some of my achievements from this year that were motivated by the word renew, and will be pushed forward more by my 2019 word, commit:

-less anxiety

-working with younique

-practicing my makeup and getting on video

-worked on budget all year long (still learning and fixing it)

-reading more although not entirely successful, more intake media was accomplished

-got a PT job (in December at Chico’s)

-figured out who and what I wanted in my life

-building on my relationship and making it stronger

-we moved and then regretted it

-working on calming my intense emotions and not being snappy, angry and annoyed over literally small things I can’t control

-found my blog and local tribe of babes and brainstorming new projects and more content that’s valuable

-worked on my self love and self care journey; made serious progress

-stayed at home and kept on top of chores and wifey duties pretty well

-purged and organized a LOT this year which felt so good

Those might be semi vague, but honestly, they were HUGE for me. So I feel good about moving into a new year with these things in my belt. I am thankful to have Sean by my side and be growing into a newer person by exposing myself to things that seemed hard or impossible. It’s not hard or impossible though, it’s just adjusting and focusing on progress, not perfection. I can’t expect to never feel uncomfortable because we all feel that way from time to time. It’s moving through the muck and learning to be okay and get stronger by learning, not by being ‘all-knowing’ right away.

I’m going to start a couple of things this year that I want to focus on and implement immediately:

• Journaling
• Meditation
• Yoga/exercise
• Quality time with Sean
• Dogs- get them active and playing more

Hopefully, this is helpful or gives you an idea of my plans for 2019 and at LEAST for the month of January. Small steps become big accomplishments. I’m psyched for this year, so here we go!

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