[Currently: March]

[Currently: March]

Soon to be April so goodbye to March but I thought I’d do another check in with you all and tell you what I’ve been up to. I made up a few new prompts so these aren’t totally the same as what you’ve seen before. I’m so excited for our up coming journey packing and moving to a new place (probably still local but we’ll see). What have you been up to lately? How’s life and 2019 been treating you? Drop me a comment down below and let’s start a conversation!

listening: to new music and a new show I’m watching right now called Mental Warrior

eating: Taquitos. YUM!

drinking: Passion tea and also drinking cherry pomegranate juice & more water..

wearing: sweaters and jeans for now but less and less once it warms up for spring

feeling: excitedly overwhelmed

weather: getting warmer, yesterday was SO sunshiney and nice-it’s trying to hard to flip flop between rain and warm sun.

wanting: a spa day. nails, facials, massage, haircut….. I need some serious TLC.

dreaming of: a million dollars/win the lottery, a maid to keep my apartment clean, a nice house to own (someday) and about 10 more dogs to complete my family. *laughs* so what woud you be dreaming about?

thinking: about my mental health and how I can improve. I really enjoy being in this group on facebook and in her From Blues to Bliss program so give that a bit more attention.

enjoying: my corner desk with all my stuff and my focus back on sharing my life on this blog.

Life Update

The start of 2019 has been a little less than ideal and much more bumpy than I ever expected. I went into 2019 hoping and wishing for the best after a super roller coaster of a 2018. But I didn’t get my wish- still trying to turn things around here. I have been missing around here and honestly really uninspired. But I figure at least an update is in store even if it only covers surface level things.

January started with a bit of stress. I tried working for a little clothing boutique but under all the expectations and anxiety I buckled. It didn’t work out and I felt guilt but I’ve been working on me and figuring out what might be best in the future. Sean was looking for work for weeks and with no success, we continued on. We ended up selling a lot of Sean’s gaming room items, which helped us get by in February. I’m happy to be at home and continue taking care of the dogs on a daily basis. Maggie had an incident with her shoulder and it took her weeks to heal. She’s okay now and back to her perky self but that was the second thing that happened.
Then after that hardship, we were behind on our phone bill by what I thought was only a month. But because it was almost 60 days- we were shut off for a short amount of time. Although to be honest, it made me appreciate my phone and technology even more. I feel really bad that happened but we didn’t have a way to remedy it before.

Lately we’ve been making plans or getting ready to make plans to move. I won’t tell you how many times it’s been since we got married (almost every year)…so a lot. But it’s usually for a reason and we’d like to settle down but also we are antsy people who like to get fresh scenery as well. It might be local, or it might not be. We really have no idea. We’d like to save some money and the farther away from Portland you are- the cheaper and more value you get… it’s something we have to weigh with the fact that I don’t drive, work location etc. I’m just excited after coming back to this complex to leave- we have horrible upstairs neighbors that stomp and yell and wrestle and we hear everything, all the time. Except when they aren’t home! We got placed near the playground and around a lot of kids too which isn’t really our jam. I just want a new space and for a better value. I’m sick of paying so much money and not even feeling comfortable and being angry at noise constantly.

In the meantime I’ve been ‘working’ with a friend of mine (and starting a blog post all about it TBA) who runs a custom printwear buisness called Lewis Printwear. Amber is fantastic, sweet, timely and she loves her work! Go check out what she has and you can reach out to me if you’d like a discount code and I’m sure we have one for ya! She has so many designs, customs and pre made tees, tanks, hats, accessories and decals and more to come…. Tell her I sent ya! It’s been keeping me busy resizing images and being a brand rep for her. If you happen to be interested just feel free to email me (find it in the sidebar or on my contact page).

I’ve been brainstorming on some more topics where I can be of help and fill you all in on the highlights of my life and parts you missed because I didn’t share it. I hope you’ll tell me if there’s something you’d like me to write about or something you’re struggling with where I can be of service.

I’m simply hoping that after we move etc things will take an upturn. Send us good vibes and prayers or whatever you believe in.

5 Small Ways to Celebrate Valentines’ Day

5 Small Ways to Celebrate Valentines’ Day

I wanted to write a simple post for this love-ly holiday that many people choose to hate. But I wanted to share a few ways that maybe those people or couples who want to switch it up will have a handufl of new ways to celebrate. My hope is that some of these may stick and you’ll have fun with this sweet but sour holiday and I wish you all lots of love. 

5 small ways to celebrate Valentine’s Day

1. Enjoy some chocolate covered fruit on a special day-buy the chocolate (the good stuff!) and pick out all your favorite fruits, all different kinds (pineapple, apple, strawberries, raspberries and mangoes!). 
2. Take new pictures for yourself or you and your S/O to create and make memories-try different poses, new sorts of backdrops and all various moods and smiles. Have fun and enjoy each other or do this with your friends!
3. Have a fun date with a group of friends like movie and dinner-grab all your 5-6 closest friends or less a close 2-4 friends and go see a fun movie and have a fabulous dinner from someplace new perhaps.
4. Self indulge; do everything you love for one day- a nice bubble bath, a spa day, a meal or two with yourself-all of the above! 
5. Go on a local stay vacation-discover your city or town, maybe you’ll find a new favorite-find a quaint place and go to a new restaurant or museum or botanical garden. Check out anything that’s a new experience for you! Make a new memory book based on this local weekend of fun. 

I hope these are new ideas that maybe you’d apply to this ever lovin’ holiday together or alone! 

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Feb Goals + Jan Recap

Feb Goals + Jan Recap

Happy February! This month has flown by and it’s been moving at a snails pace though too- January was never-ending! It’s what I’ve heard from nearly everyone, that january felt lke months and months on end. And while I agree I’m glad it’s finally a new one and on into 2019 with a new fresh perspective that maybe will wash away the crud of January. I wanted to get a post up for you and my positive plans for the next 24 days. We had some serious issues this last month with finances and are trying to clean up and simplify our lives in other ways. How was your January and I genuinely hope it was better than ours…. Onto the GOALS & RECAP!

February Intentions:

1. Read one book and listen to one book every month

2. Listen to podcasts and more video media

3. Stretch and move my body at least 2x a week (start 2/7)

4. Blog 2-3x a week

5. Meditate and Journal daily PM

6. Track water intake and count steps with fitbit and thermos water bottle or waterminder app

7. Quality time weekly with Sean

8. Get in touch with 5 friends this month

9. Keep apartment clean by following a chore chart weekly

January Recap:

1. Read half of one book (want to finish The Four Agreements) and finish listening to Troublemaker while doing chores and while doing mindless tasks

2.Started a journal but didn’t keep up with it, want to make that a daily habit either in the coffee time AM or before bed at PM

3. Taking better care of dogs; Maggie was hurt for weeks but hoping to incorporate more play and longer walks, regular schedule for potty time

4. We had a HARD month so a lot was emotionally and psychologically draining. However it’s helped show me how to get through and what it’s like to struggle… Anyway, we are strong.

5. I got a job and decided that I couldn’t hnadle that type of job. I just don’t think retail is for me. I was very overwhelmed and didn’t like that they had a sales quota and I didn’t see myself continuing that.

6. Maggie had injured herself for a good two weeks so we nursed her back to health and she’s doing a lot better now.

7. I did blog somewhat but with all the actual stress and confusion I didn’t make it a priority. I’m trying harder this month. SHARE and REPIN please!

 This month has also flown by already, its 3 days until Valentines day and I’m just aiming to do more and get more done. I haven’t been doing very good this month yet with my goals. But bit by bit I’m going to implement just a few things a day to start these habits I really want to achieve. 

I’ll do an update later this month- I’ve been drinking more water, listening to more media and taking care of the dogs and keeping the apartment clean and tidy. So I need to stay on top of the small things, like tracking water and steps, cooking more at home and journaling daily. Wish me luck!

Happy Friday

Happy Friday

Welcome back to Happy Friday! Every week my friend and one of my blogging BFFs, Krysten from Why Girls Are Weird posts this run post collecting all the things that made her (and us) happy this week! It can be anything, As few or many as you like but typically I do 10, it helps you to remain thankful and really think about the nuggets of happy in your week. Come join us and be sure to tell her I sent ya. Drop your link below and I’ll be sure to check it out and comment! I hope you’ll do the same.

Here we go; my happy list for 2/1/19

1. New playlist on spotify

2. I finally finished The Fosters show and about to start Good Trouble

3. Blogging

4. going simplistic on my phone

5. cleaning and listening to audiobook Troublemaker

6. Sean got the job at Home Depot in garden dept

7. cuddles with bouncer

8. watching new documentaries like Ted Bundy on netflix

9. cozy socks and heat on to stay warm

10. snow coming monday

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Reading List of 2019

Reading List of 2019

One of my major goals this year is to read more so I’m going to make that happen (granted I’ve started late to the game). I began The Four Agreements and loved it but life got crazy the last week or two and I haven’t picked it back up. I’m going to take a few solid days to catch up and it’s a short book so I think I can still finish it easily by the end of January. Although while I clean I have been listening to Troublemaker and I love hearing Leah Remini’s own voice and spunk about her early childhood experinences. And that is much easier for me most time anyway- I can usually absorb a audiobook okay for the most part.

My plan going forward is this: Read 1-2x day AM/PM (even just a few pages) read according to my guide and lined up books. I’d like to do reviews on these books or at least some so let me know if that interests you at all. I just gave away a lot of physical copies of books I had since I just never read them but I had so man others that I needed to read, so those were donated. Most of these are books that I’ve had for at least a few years and others I’ve just gotten recently in Kindle or Audible. This is my take on a reading challenge which it is- because I’m lucky with my slow reading speed and comprehension if I can read one book a month.

Here’s my 2019 reading list goal plan:

January: The Four Agreements-paperback/Troublemaker on audible

February: The Power of Now-kindle
March: The Soul Searchers Handbook/Adventures for your Soul-kindle
April: Daring Greatly-kindle
May: May Cause Miracles-kindle
June: The Untethered Soul-kindle
July: Make it Happen-kindle
August: Sacred Powers-to be ordered
September: Talking as Fast as I Can-audible
October: This Is Just My Face-Try Not To Stare-audible
November: Seriously I’m Kidding-audible
December: Big Magic-to be ordered

And a few extra suggestions of ones I have/want to read if I have extra time or swap any of these out.

-Catcher-kalyn nicholson
-Kind is the new Classy
-Girl stop apoligizing
-The power of habit
-Nine Perfect Strangers


What are you looking forward to reading this year? New or old? What is your favorite types of books to read and why? Let me know in the comments below. Drop your favorite books down below in case I need to add them to my list!

2019 Word of the Year

2019 Word of the Year


carry out or perpetrate (a mistake, crime, or immoral act).
“he committed an uncharacteristic error”
synonyms: carry out, do, perpetrate, engage in, enact, execute, effect, accomplish; More
pledge or bind (a person or an organization) to a certain course or policy.
“they were reluctant to commit themselves to an opinion”
synonyms: pledge, devote, apply, give, dedicate
“they committed themselves to the project”
*from the Dictionary search on Google*


This word stuck out to me right away when I started to think about Word of the Year. I have in much of my life lacked a sense of commitment and sticking through the tough times. Not so much in a sense of personal commitment but in pretty much every other way. I tend to bail out on things when it gets hard or when my anxiety comes into play. So being consistent and commiting to each and every adventure and new thing I take on- I can at least try and follow through on. The goal is to apply this to my personal life in learning to drive (permit), my new PT job, and my relationship. It will also help me being consistent and commited on here in this space, also helps to batch write and plan ahead.

Last year my word was “Renew” I think I did well and applied this word Renew in many places. I started this new blog and maybe didn’t make as much progress last year as much as I wanted but that’s okay. I started out feeling as fresh and new as I do now-but we had obstacles and we balanced and problem solved it better than before. I wasn’t I as anxious this year as I was the year prior. I have found ways and techniques to cope day to day and change my reality in a better way. Now committing to the process and the journey will be a whole new place I haven’t been in before.

I want to recap some of my acheivements from this year that were motivated by renew. And will be pushed forward more by commit.

-less anxiety

-working with younique

-practicing my makeup and getting on video

-worked on budget all year long (still learning and fixing it)

-reading more although not entirely successfully but more intake media was accomplished

-got a job (in december) PT at Chico’s

-figured out who and what I wanted in my life

-building on my relationship and making it stronger

-we moved and then regretted it

-working on calming my intense emotions and not being snappy, angry and annoyed over literally small things I can’t control

-found my blog and local tribe of babes and brainstorming new projects and more content that’s valuable

-worked on my self love, and self care journey; made serious progress

-stayed at home and kept on top of chores and wifey duties pretty well

-purged and organized a LOT this year which felt so good

 Those might be semi vague but honestly they were HUGE for me. So I feel good about moving into a new year with these things in my belt. I am thankful to have Sean by my side and be growing into a newer person by exposing myself to things that seemed hard or impossible. It’s not- it’s just adjustment and progress not perfection. I can’t expect to never feel uncomfortable because we all feel that way from time to time. It’s moving through the muck and learning to be okay and get stronger by learning not by being ‘all knowing right away’.

I’m going to start a couple things this year that I want to focus on and implement immediately. 

  • Journaling
  • Meditation
  • Yoga/exercise
  • Quality Time with Sean 
  • Dogs; get them active and playing more

That’s pretty much it. I have rambled enough, I think. Hopefully this is helpful or gives you an idea of my plans for 2019 and at LEAST for the month of January. Small steps- big accomplishments. I’m psyched for this year-here we go!


two zero one nine

two zero one nine

What I want in 2019:

1. Blog 2-3x a week

I should start prepping content now and thinking of topics that people will find helpful in the new year or in January in general. There are many subjects that I haven’t even explored or touched on so if there is something specific that you’d like to see please leave me a comment below or feel free to email me.

2. Travel-California, Florida, Greece?

Start a savings TRAVEL fund so we can take a trip or two this coming year. The only way to make this happen is to start being more conscious of money and paying off debt and setting extra funds aside. My dream trip is Greece and by god, I would FLIP if I got to go.

3. Read one book a month

I can absolutely do this. I find when I am reading often I do really enjoy that intake of story and information. Set a schedule to do this every AM/PM and stick to it. Find the only books that you enjoy and really want to fully read and gain knowledge from.
“Some books leave us free and some books make us free.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

4. Personal Growth- self love, self care, self actualization commence

Do a self care routine a couple times a week if possible. Have a better sense of my own self love and self respect. Start doing and achieving whatever I can for self growth and actualization. *Read personal development and write notes or take aways to apply those principles*

5. Save 1K for emergencies or towards 10 yr wedding fund

Again another savings goals. But I have to make this happen for a better wedding plans and emergency savings because we have learned this year that that is IMPORTANT. If you yourself don’t already have one or has recently depleted I encourage you to start one.

6. Listen to more audio media- podcasts, ted talks, music etc

I have started applying this while I clean or write posts/brainstorm etc or sometimes before bed when I’m antsy and can’t chill out. I enjoy a few podcasts like Pretty Basic, Coffee Talk with Kalyn and also a few crime or general knowledge ones. I try not to grab too many downloaded for lack of space and also for simplicity sake. I am working on decluttering every inch of my mental and physical space.

7. Volunteer- aka being a nicer, more giving person; and/or donate more often to non profit charities

I want to (if not a job) have a better sense of community and doing something with my time that I enjoy and helps others. I’ve often thought of volunteering at a soup kitchen or a dog shelter or even helping at a donation center or charity. The only thing holding me back is transportation so let’s make that happen too. The second part of this is donate more and keep track of those things so they can be deduced for tax reasons.

8. Get my freaking LICENSE

I go back and forth on whether I want to or not and being more independent as a human being. But overall, I know it would help so much for me to be able to get out and do things without asking for a ride or relying on other modes. Fear about driving is common, but it will be better in the end to gain the knowledge and then make a decision from there.

9. Improve Exercise and Nutrition habits

I have somewhat improved upon eating better, not in a perfect way but definitely different that I’m not eating just only junk and fast food. Finding healthy snacks and drinking more water is a basic start I’ve begun. I am not really as close on the fitness track but I have a goal for a new gym routine/yoga and stretch days.

10. Build better relationships

My actual relationships, friends, family or otherwise, have been sort of  put on the back burner. I don’t mean to and yes I’m close to a small group of close people I love and trust. But I have pulled away from many and also put up with far too much interpersonal abuse so that has stopped this year. However I do care about many people I know and want to continue to get to know in my life and that is what I’d like to improve upon. Building and focusing on nurturing a friendship/relationship takes both parties giving 100%.

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End of Year Reflection

End of Year Reflection

This year has been a crazy wild ride for sure. Up and down, in and out, bad and then good again. I didn’t know what to ever expect and that was kinda hard.

January was a fresh start and we had a lot going on that we took care of in the first few months. Then in March, we suddenly moved because we were out of city limits and didn’t like the place we lived at. We moved back into town and returned to a previous complex only to find out that it was basically a joke (i.e loud neighbors, constant barking dogs and management that doesn’t care at ALL). So we quickly regretted that. I think we will end up moving this year when our lease is up in May.

Sean’s job situation has been up and down all year due to many crappy situations, but we are striving and reaching for more. We want to grow and be even more successful and take on more serious responsibility. I was working for Younqiue and Doterra which I may still continue in the background but I want to have a J-O-B, so I hope come the new year I may be set up to do so. I would love to invest more time and money into making this a better place and trying to better myself in many ways coming into 2019. I want more for myself and my personal growth and development. (Side note: I got a job and I’m so excited-nervous for it… wish me luck!)

I’ve come back full circle to this place where I love to blog and share my life with others so I want to continue to have time to do so. I’m trying to get this one post up to recap maybe some of the year and then continue strong into posts for the new year, new me (old phrase I know-but meaningful). Let me know if there’s anything specific that you’d like to see. I’m going to make January a time to discuss personal growth, goals and the ways to improve your life on a daily basis- while finding ways to be happy in the middle of the dark months. My tribe has help close to me, I’ve let go of a few toxic people and moved away from hearing the negativity or falseities. But I’m so overly thankful for those who love me and support me in every step of my life. I have some amazing women around me and I’m sure you know who you are (Raewyn, Pamela, Bonnie, Kris, Emily, Cate-my blogging besties & Krysten who has always been a huge source of encouragement and inspiration) Thank you I had to mention these great ladies! I appreciate Ashley and Cynthia who’ve both been in my life and circled back again, I love you two SO much, seriously! I’d do anything for you both. We have 20+ years and I can’t believe we will grow old all together. Stevie, you’re my rock- you’re an amazing person and I love you SO SO SO much. Thank you fo always being there and I’m happy to be there when you need it; you’ll be my Steve forever; my Jeff Granola supporter. 

I’ve been trying to take better care of myself and who I surround myself with. It might be silly to say but I have been diving into self love and self growh videos on youtube premium, I love watching videos and advice there that I can learn and implement too. My self care has been upped- more baths, more skin care, more breathing, more journaling, more quiet time… I love it. My home has had a big purge too and decluttering has been the best form of feeling clear. So my chores have been my top priority for months, trying to stay on top of it all.

The holidays were calm and chill. We didn’t decorate much and didnt do much anyways during the month. We spent it with my in laws and  didn’t really make a huge deal out of the holidays like we normally do. 2019 is sneaking up so so fast and I’m relieved. It always feels like a new start and I need that about now. I’ve learned how to be more positive overall and I have changed into a more complete happier person in the last six months or so. I know that even our relationship has changed and eveolved and will improve even further in 2019. It feels like a new year, a fresh start. And maybe some people hate that idea; the waiting to be productive, the “it’s a new day/year” mentality when really everyday is a good day for growth, goals and change. But I just like that something motivates me that much to really do so and if I can find a way to stick to them then that’s great for me. It’s gonna be a year to commit but more on that coming soon……

Thank you for reading and following my blog this place means so much to me and I hope as I start my new journey back into the workforce (PT) that I can balance everything. I really appreciate every comment, every share, every repin- my job here is to share my journey and hope that it affects or helps you in some way. If you’d like to tell me anything closing out the new year  please take a moment in the comments to do so or feel free to shoot me an email-which you can find on my Contact page.

Happy Friday

Happy Friday

Welcome to Happy Friday! Each week, Krysten from Why Girls are Weird comes up with a list of ten things that have made her happy this week. So I always join in because it’s a favorite part of my week being so thankful and grateful. Having a hard week? Coming up with a list of happy things can help turn that frown upside down.

If you wanna play along come join us and share the photo below in your post and mention I sent ya! This is such a fun thing to do and really makes you reflect about the events and turn out of the week as a whole and as a sum of the parts.

  1. Getting a J-O-B! I’m so excited and thrilled to try my hand at retail in this small boutique. I’m sure I’ll have updates to come….
  2. Christmas movies- I watched so many this year on Hallmark/Christmas channel, it was sooo worth it!
  3. Good music! I’ve been having some jams and if you listen to Spotify- make sure you grab the 2018 most listened playlist. I have some saved bops on there that I’m excited to keep on repeat (for now).
  4. Doterra Oils- I’ve been using mine daily for so many things and man they sure help.
  5. Cooking more at home, I want to find more easy slow cooker recipes which chicken or beef because we eat those protein the most (feel free to link or drop ideas below)
  6. Finding a great candy shop at the mall- buy a jar for 12.95 and refill every time unlimited for 9$. It’s a great sweet random treat!
  7. Writing. Period. I’m so into journaling and spilling my guts out lately. I highly recommend starting a writing routine. Bullet journal, regular journaling or morning pages, blogging- any of it! It’s great for your mental/psychological and emotional state.
  8. Iced coffee and donuts in the AM with hubby. It’s been a great little morning wake up everyday with fresh made coffee.
  9. Wireless phone charger! It’s so convenient!
  10. Puppy cuddles and fuzzy blankets! They’ve been super needy and I love them sooo hard lately.

What made you happy this week? Share with me in the comments below

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