For my husband on his birthday

For my husband on his birthday

I wanted to take a minute to word vomit for my husband on his birthday.

Babe, we have been through so much over these past 9 years. We have learned so much in error and kept each other afloat. I don’t want this to sound like an anniversary post because babe it’s all about you. Ever since I met you I’ve been obsessed. You are the sun on my darkest days, you lift me up and encourage me every chance you get. You’ve been the best partner in crime and a passionate lover. The tough exterior is just a front because I’ve seen you down to your core and it’s all gooey sensitivity in there. In the beginning you were a broodish man who was completely lost and misunderstood, we leaned on each other deeper each day for support and I want to continue to get back to that place. As we walked further in life together, you softened and also grew more guarded in ways that which were necessary. You stand up for yourself with such pride and charisma that people mistake you for a jerk or someone who doesn’t care. This simply is not true if someone knew your life, your triumphs, your struggles, your pain and your healing- they’d think otherwise. Seriously you’re the best guy ever- don’t change. You are a champion. A hero who lifted me from ashes when my cards were all down. I cannot thank you enough for the rest of my life!! In times of need you always strategize ways to fix the problem, to avoid catastrophe and make things all shiny new again. That is a big quality that I admire so much in you. Where I lack, you teach me to be better in small ways, to be more caring, less judgemental and not so hard on myself. Basically you’ve made me a stronger person and better human 9 times over. I don’t know where I’d be without you- so much that it makes me super emotional. I mostly thank your parents for having you because without them and the help of Ashley, we never would have been. Sometimes I think “what if?”- my mind doesn’t dare cross the question. It’s unfathomable, because despite the odds and trials we have overcome every single one and having you by my side has been the best gift of my entire life. I gaze into your eyes and think how in the hell did I get so damn lucky?!?!

Onto the next, you are so hard working, outgoing, generous, kind, faithful, loyal, funny and sexy. We are BOTH 30 now and we gotta step up our future game; so let’s put the big pants on together and help each other out more. I’m always here for you no matter what, believe me when I say I’ll do better. I don’t want you to ever doubt that my love for you runs deep, down to the center of my soul. You are my love, my light, my everything… forever and always, to the moon and back. Happy 30th and I can’t wait to have the next 50+ years with you!

Goodbye twenties, hello thirties!

Goodbye twenties, hello thirties!

I used to love my birthdays but that has changed. Growing up, celebrating was a top priority and was just a high point of my year. We used to go all out for my birthday party and it was a gathering family affair.

As time went on, I grew up and it stopped being fun. I no longer looked forward to it and started letting it get me down. The family passed on and dwindled-I quit having fun with this personal day. As a kid I celebrated growing up and being older; getting to do things I couldn’t before. But as an adult, I have a lot of freedom these days and my birthday became just not as special. I usually just celebrate with a nice dinner and cake which is wonderful. I’m still very thankful but the big 3-0 feels very serious in comparison. Like a third of my life is over and what have I done?! {forgive me if this feels whiny or negative-at this point it’s a free write}

I have blogged for 10 years combined, I have started and stopped many businesses online, I have gotten married and survived read:thrived for 9 years of marriage and I have celebrated being a loving wife and furmom. We’ve been through ups and downs and all in between and I’m grateful for being able to live life the way I do. Reality hit us hard this past year with budget and future planning and we are still alive and doing well in my opinion. We have strengthened our relationship and I’m constantly working on being a better and fair wife. I have learned, gained and lost friends but I am beyond the juvenile(ness) that I used to have upon me. I just don’t have time for it anymore. Beginning new hobbies and spending my time in a more productive way is at the top of my list and making strides towards a solid future. At the end of the day committing to something that makes me happiest and feeling fulfilled is an important part of my life.

I know going forward that I should grab my life by the reins and never take anything for granted. I’m going to drop the negative attitude around my birthday that I once had and continue to love this day because it celebrates me being here, being alive and having a life to live.

My 30th birthday  started off by sleeping in and being able to relax and wake up slowly. It was the most pleasant morning I’ve had in awhile even besides the normal day. I was flooded with messages and emails of love, well wishes and happy birthdays’. My best friend Ashley took me out to coffee and sushi, we ran around downtown and hung out while it warmed up. I swung into a small boutique I had been into before and saw one item that I needed, a 30th party wine glass! It was so much fun! When I came home a few hours later, Sean said not to peek in the kitchen. So I marched in the bedroom and was surprised when I saw some sweet jammies and a card on the bed. If you follow me on Instagram I posted them there a few days ago.Then our friend Bryant came over; it was his birthday too so we celebrated altogether! We got him some games for his birthday and made his day better. Next we just decided to have cake (at like noon) and ice cream, so Sean put candles on the cake and we blew them out at the same time. After eating a bit of cake and ice cream I went over to World Market and grabbed some tiny bottles of wine to mix with orange juice and enjoy with dinner. She recommended some moscato in very fruity flavors with peach and raspberry. Before I left I decided to grab a few little specialty lotions and a cute sloth notebook.After I came back home we chilled out for awhile and eventually got hungry that evening. So the boys went out and got Papa Murphys’ to bake pizza at home. (side story: my oven turned off the preheat so the second pizza wasn’t cooking and took forever to finish, so eventually…) We ate and enjoyed pizza, I watched some tv and drink wine while the boys played games. It was the perfect ending to a fabulous 30th birthday!

What are your viewpoints about getting older? What do you think about your birthday? And how do you celebrate your own special day?

Daily Night Routine

Daily Night Routine

So a while back I wrote about my Daily Morning Routine and when I got so much feedback and positivity on it I thought I’d write the Daily Night Routine. These are common posts for bloggers to write and people to be into reading but I have to be honest, I’m just starting mine. I haven’t had a set routine in quite a few years because I’ve been basically a stay at home wife. But I feel like I need more structure for my whole day and night to be more productive and time managed well.

First of all when I’m winding down for my night I try to get comfortable. it’s a very important thing. Usually I’ll shower first or on a self care night I’ll indulge in a bath to soak in and deeply relax. Showers and baths at night is easier for me because I find the heat so relaxing. I am a person who likes to be cozy all the time and that means pajamas earlier than most. After Sean comes home, I feed the dogs and we will eat at the same time. And then after they scarf down their food, they will go outside to go potty. They’ll go a few more times through the night before we head off to bed as well. Most nights you’ll find me either watching tv (whatever I’m binging at the moment on netflix or hulu) or blogging away.
I often cuddle with dogs while I text a bunch of friends to see how their day went. I made a new habit of reading at 11:00 or 11:30 pm before I go to sleep at midnight. It seems late but that’s the earliest my body will let me sleep. I’m a natural night owl and it’s been really hard to fight it. Next up is a trip to the bathroom, wash my hands and brush my teeth. I’ve been trying to get better about some decent skincare habits so I wash my face with a cleanser and maybe do a mask or some spot treating also before my head hits that pillow.

I love to be on my phone in bed which I know is like the worst thing you can do (see: blue light, etc etc). I tend to scroll pinterest and do my best spree repinning and pinning my own content late at night, which to be honest probably isn’t good for my algorithms-oops!

I tend to fall asleep easily compared to my husband who has terrible insomnia and must sleep with a fan. We both snore so that drives us both batty! And also two weiner dogs who hog the bed really badly but they don’t know any better so having them in their own dog bed isn’t an option either.

Well I see this was probably a bit confusing and mixed up but it’s kinda the best I can do for now since I’m starting over with a new plan now. Our new routine includes an early to rise game plan with a workout afterwards and I’m going to work on putting my phone down more often too.

Tell me what you have in your morning or night routine that HAS TO HAPPEN..

Why I Chose My Major (and Why I Quit)

Why I Chose My Major (and Why I Quit)

This blog space here is relatively new and if you don’t personally know me you won’t know that despite all my hardships in my young life that I attended both a community college and a University. I honestly haven’t written a whole lot about my college days in a very long time and mostly it was only ‘I’m doing this paper’ or ‘working on that project’. I enjoyed school growing up very much. I loved most of my teachers through the years however school became difficult for me. But as I grew up I started to get the hang of it and worked smarter not harder. I put more effort in and aside from having a pretty hard senior year I slipped through- not my highest GPA but also not my lowest. I graduated and moved out on my own. Portland State accepted me and I chose to go to start my Bachelor of Science in Psychology degree.

There’s a lot of reasons why I picked a psychology degree. My first reason being that I grew up as a child of divorce and  I was moved around like a rag doll between parents for years. It was a scary time and I didn’t understand what was going on. I didn’t have a lot of people to talk to and was then taught to keep secrets and not to tell anyone what was going on. Later on down the line after moving a bunch and doubling back to high school I took beginner to psychology class. I  loved the content and teachers I had. I loved how the lessons in the class related directly to my life. The idols and great fathers of psychology in every tier was so fascinating to me. It was one of the only classes I liked and enjoyed, asked questions and readily was interested in. I remember wishing at the end of the semester that there was just more lessons. My teachers as a junior in high school then urged me to look into thinking about doing psychology as a major.

A big reason why I initially wanted to study psychology had a lot to do with what I went through as a young teen. I lost my father at a young age to suicide-it was sudden and tragic. Anyway, I felt like I had a lot of people trying to support me and counsel me but they did a bad job. Years later and I don’t think I’ll ever recover from it. It’s something that just lives with you no matter what you do to cope daily. I know I am not the totality of what happened but of course it affected my life in a huge way. I also acknowledge that I am not the only one this has happened to and I know there are better parts of life coming.

I always wanted to help kids thrown into bad situations like me, helpless and hopeless kids who needed to be supported.  I felt like I could relate to kids who’ve been through similar losses with immediate family members. I went to a child’s counseling group center called “Dougy Center” I don’t know if it’s state or nationwide but I loved it all the same. It was truly a safe place where you can physically and mentally release whatever emotions you are struggling with.(sidenote: there was an arson and although it was destroyed they were able to relocate and rebuild again even better than before)

I think it’s especially important to take your pre-requisites very seriously. I was great doing my undergrad studies and then when it came time to have my nose to the grindstone, I was already like, worn out. School is tedious and monotonous. I am no longer a believer in “college is the only way” because now we have mediums like YouTube and companies who hire and train on site. Although positions like in an office secretary type setting used to be entry level is now not enough experience for an post grad. Changes in times surrounding school are one of two ideas; you MUST go to school and now these days go for longer/word harder OR you have to create your own skillset, sell or be unique enough that you can somehow make a living and live unhappily in middle to low class forever.

When I met my husband- things changed. Priorities just shifted. Although it really had nothing to do with him I wasn’t invested anymore. I hit my wall after 5 years of school and still puttering along without any real progress or final stand, I was done. I was struggling through every class and trying desperately to get help in my math arena. I got tutoring and after school help and office hours but nothing was working out… I felt defeated and that at the end of it all was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I had 7 more math classes to finish when I called it quits. I was so close and yet so far and at that point I don’t think anyone could blame me. My heart wasn’t in it anymore and I just couldn’t reinvest either. Now my financial situation has changed and I cannot afford to go back to school. So I’m going to encourage you to continue to strive, if you’ve hit your wall keep pushing because in the end it’s so important. I’m thankful that I learned as much as I did in the amazing courses with the people and educators that I did but I wish I could’ve finished.

Did you choose to go to community college or a university? Did you go straight to work from high school? What has been your experiences and what lead you to that path? I’d really love to hear why and how you’d do it different (if you could or want to)?

 

Things I’m Afraid to Tell You

Things I’m Afraid to Tell You

So #truth I snagged this post from the lovely Megan from Bloom

I really loved this idea so I thought I’d do the same and share with everyone.
Let’s see how this goes…I dare you to do this post and share with me-let’s compare answers.
  • I weigh less than 100lbs. I think I weigh myself and every time the number never moves (and I want to gain weight) it always says 91. I am a tiny sized human and my mom has a very small frame too. 
  • I’ve dyed my hair or gotten it done since I was 18- almost every year at least 2-3x a year. Also my hair grows so fast that I can chop it off and it’s back before wintertime.
  • I have fallen off a horse- and I thought I was paralyzed.. I was so afraid I didn’t move my back and was carried up the hill from the corral on a stretch backboard. I was terrified and I think I scared other kids too..
  • I get jealous- like everyone else. I often find myself wishing I had a bigger home, a better car, a job that I love, more friends, better hair or healthier being. I’m working on being happy with what I have. Because that’s just as good!
  • I have a weak leaky bladder- yep there it is, a deep dark secret. (oops!)
  • I’m not the greatest blogger and I’m trying to improve with regularity and better content so if you like what you’re reading and seeing- I’d love to hear about it. {and please subscribe to my weekly newsletter!}
  • I used to be so crafty and creative in school and now I’m not so much- I’d really like to express myself that way again.
  • I eat way too much fast food and drink too much soda. Working on creating healthier habits.
  • I’m 29 years young and look like I’m a 10 year old- blessed I guess?!
  • I get really mad when I’m yanked around (physically and emotionally).
  • I don’t trust easily anymore- I used to trust way too easily and now I barely trust anyone.
  • Sometimes I get mad, like really mad and say things I don’t mean.
  • I often don’t have a filter or don’t use my brain when I speak and say the completely wrong thing.
  • I have done many things I’m not proud of (I know we all have) but I’m actually still ashamed of these things and don’t speak about them anymore-time to move on right?
  • I have secrets, my family had secrets and I know everyone has something to hide now, I learned to take it with a grain of salt.
  • Sometimes I unfairly judge people (again everyone does sometimes) but I’m trying to learn not to.
  • I can’t cook worth beans- I am a box cook QUEEN. (this has 100% changed since I originally wrote this; I’m getting quite good at cooking now). Although now I’m learning as we try KETO this year!
  • I am so jump-into-things mentality that it often gets me into trouble.
  • I’m 100% shy around new people but also EXTREMELY outspoken around close friends-which one are you gonna be?
Hopefully you found this interesting. But, we all have our things and that is some of mine. Thanks for everything and I hope you will be supportive and maybe write your own confessions…

What are you afraid to tell me? What secrets have you NOT divulged yet?

if you have any questions- feel free to just ask. And as always you can email me as well at noraspaulding@gmail.com

Back at it!

Back at it!

So this is the 15,742 time I’ve tried to write something since January 1st 2018. But this time I’m gonna write because I want to and I want to get you all caught up on my life lately and what’s coming back to this blog. I talk about coming back a lot but seriously I want to make it a regular thing and have you guys enjoy what I have to share about my life and what I’m loving on this blog and life in general. I don’t do enough sharing here. It’s all very shallow and superficial- so let’s get real.

WE’RE MOVING

Okay first of all, yes again. We moved to this house about a year and a half ago because we wanted a house and we wanted to be in a quiet neighborhood and have it all. But we didn’t. That ended up with a bad roommate (again) and seriously regretted it. So now we are downsizing and decided to go back to an apartment that we were very comfortable in and have previous experience with new management. It’s in town and closer to our needs and although we are buying out of our contract I think it will be a much happier environment. We have two days to finish packing and my heart is already at the new place. I’m over this environment and ready to create a bright new space.


YOUNIQUE

I have been so absent here I haven’t really talked about my newest greatest passion besides this online space. I never loved makeup but lately (in the last few months) it’s been a new refreshing hobby/hustrle and I’m enjoying it so much. Younique is completely woman centered and gives back much of the donations given to their own “Safe Haven Women’s Retreat” for women who’ve been sexually abused as kids. It’s a foundation near and dear to my own heart and I hope I can learn more in the coming months and write even more about it. If you’d like to get involved or donate go to www.youniquefoundation.org. I provide high quality makeup products for the every woman.I love going LIVE and seeing my friends and family supporting me, making people excited about what we offer or trying something new. I feel like it’s where I’m meant to be. Building a team and making someone excited about the journey we are on together is the best feeling ever. (side note: Last night I watched a Younique sister *not my team, same company* hit a elite status and when she doubted she could do it, everyone banded together and supported her for an hour as she HIT HER GREEN STATUS. I was so moved I cried like a baby and wrote her a bunch of notes of love, encouragement and pride. I’m striving right now to hit my next promotion, I’m at 79% and I’ll get a raise! I’m stoked to celebrate as soon as it happens so I’m aiming before 4/10! If you have any questions please reach out! I’d be happy to chat and help you fd what you need. I’m 100% honest about what I like, use and don’t care for.
You can always shop my site at (www.youniqueproducts.com/prettylittleboutique)

doTerra ESSENTIAL OILS

Another huge natural change I’m making in my everyday life and home is essential oils. I started Doterra after trying a bunch of samples that I got after I took a free class from a friend of mine Hannah- who teaches how to use oils to improve your everyday life in every possible way thinkable! It was a 4 week (or about) class online with LIVE videos and I’ve learned so much! It was truly life changing and incredible. I had resorted to using essential oils when I felt my anxiety suddenly come back into my life with a vengeance. But since using oils on a regular basis I’ve found I’m much calmer and more relaxed and able to release those heavy feelings that bother me and wreck my days. I like to diffuse my emotional aromatherapy blends like passion, cheer and motivate! If you want more information please comment or contact me! I would love to share these amazing oils with you and get you started with a starter kit and give you 50$ in free products this month only! The new class 15 oils in 15 days starts on April 15th so please get in touch with me if you’d like a Facebook group invite to learn about oils and get a chance to begin using them and reaping the benefits and rewards! *If April fills up- you’ll be placed into May*


And with that, I’m going to be done for now well because it’s the night of the 2nd and I A) need to pack my computer and B) need to publish this already! I hope you tune and more and share alongside me and I hope that you are excited I’m back and renewed about blogging again! Wishing you all the best for the beginning of the month…. soon to come a review of “you are a bad ass” the book I chose for our Shield Sisters book club last month and all the amazing revelations I got from highlighting the whole thing!

 

 

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